My goal is to artistically express the internal dialogue of self-reflection and personal judgment over one’s lifetime, a single day or a single moment. In each of these abstract paintings, I have used house paint, various tools from my father, and textured canvases to give a physical manifestation for contemplation of this back-and-forth – this conversation with ourselves.
In our fast-paced, meritocracy-based, increasingly-divided society, my imposter syndrome is masked by overconfident brushstrokes that can’t cover up a lack of confidence in the multiple layers of paint partially hidden under the surface. The endless inner turmoil that arises from feelings of self-doubt is expressed, at times, as geometric shapes woven together with texture, at other times, as seemingly random chaos running across the canvas – much like the constant ebb and flow of thoughts that consume our minds. These shapes and forms are both in and out of balance with contrasting colors, highlighting the roller coaster of these conflicting emotions and the intensity of introspection.